Last week, I stated that rereading some of my older LJ posts has been painful in some ways, but this week the process has actually been far less painful and far more cathartic. It's helping me gain perspective on just how much things have changed for the better since April, 2006, and while there are still areas of my life that aren't as I would like, I'm in the best place I've been in over three years.
For the moment, the lack of posting is a good thing. I'm not shaking my fist at the universe like a curmudgeonly old man -- I plan to start doing that when I reach an age-appropriate point in my life... say, 43½. In the meantime, I have some stuff rolling around in my head that I would like to properly flesh out and post to LJ (maybe I'll even get one of them done this weekend), and I'm looking forward to the coming holiday season in a way I haven't since 2005.
I think that posting a smiley face emoticon is called for now. :-)
*The emotional meltdown two weeks ago was really an isolated event, and now that I've had the time and distance to properly figure out the root causes of it, I view it as something that certainly won't happen all that often in the future. Frequently, when I attempt to analyze such meltdowns in the immediate aftermath, my initial autopsy is incorrect to one degree or another, and that occurred last week. Forgive me for not reposting in length about the incident. The real root cause of the angst is more complex, and I've already expended too much energy on the matter.
